Lady Antebellum - One Day You Will (lyrics)

I love the lyrics and the song by Lady Antebellum. A friend told me to listen to it as this friend knows my life story and this friend thought it might help. Have a listen

Dreams and Caviar Wishes

As I was reading my Face Book pages I came across this claw foot tub posted on Luscious and I fell in love. Remember the show Dreams and Caviar wishes? I used to love watching how the rich and famous lived. This tub makes me think of the luxurious life I'm sure anyone would love to have. I would love to have this gorgeous tub in my home, filled with bubbles and a bottle of champagne next to me, enjoying some quiet time. I love pink and the pink radio would just add a playful touch to the room. Maybe someday.....

Brian Ferry - Slave to love

I had a conversation with a friend from high school about this song and video his favorite movie. In high school we barely knew each other, but we recently have seen each other at some high school reunions though Face Book and now we are more then just old high school friends. I don't know where this is going, but we will see. Do you think he told me about this favorite movie scene for a reason? Hmmmmm? Dinner and drinks tonight for us is in our future. To be continued....

What's at the end of this rough road for me?

I have been traveling on this rough road as a single mom, struggling to make our lives better. On top of that turning 45 was very hard to swallow. Divorce was a blessing for my mind, but not so much for my life. I worked part time to help with extra funds, but now that I am on my own, part time is just not cutting it. Child support helped for a while until my ex lost his job. Now he is struggling with no job, no more girlfriend, loneliness, and wanting to fix what he can never fix again. I am fortunate that I have family to help me, but I can not rely on them forever. I think back and how I wish that I never would have depended so much on my husband. I should have been more self reliant. I wanted to be a stay at home mom as it was better for the kids. I never thought my marriage would end so at the time it was what I truly wanted for my life. Now depending on another man is the last thing I want yet I can't seem to get my life back on track. I should probably try to go back to school and get my degree. It couldn't hurt. I have hit a road block and I can't figure out how to get through it. What to do? Well, once I reach the end of this rough road, which won't be easy, I hope I will be able to say I did it on my own.

T-Fresh Look At Me Now (Hatermix)

I need a full time job!
I need a new car!
I need my nails done!
I need a pedicure!
I need a whole body massage!
I need some new friends!
I need a house!
I need a new bathing suit!
I need a tummy tuck!
I need a man that will love me and only me!
That's about all I think. Having these things would make me so very happy. Making these things happen, a little tough, but I'm working on making them happen. Goals...
My goals. I hope I can reach them soon.

First dating service date

Well, I finally used one of those online dating services and went on my first date. This guy had only one picture on his profile, but he sounded like a decent guy. He emailed me first and we chatted for about three weeks before meeting. The night that we planned this I had just finished watching my son's baseball game and I was rushing around getting ready to meet my so called match. On my way to meet him, I received a call from someone that I have been dating and he wanted to talk. I spoke to him on the way listening to all he had to say and all I wanted to do was turn around and go see him instead. See I really like him very much, but he is the guy who is not sure what he wants. He likes me, but is not ready to commit. I know, you're probably thinking I should give up on him, but I can't. I have tried and I just love being with him. I was going on this date to see if there may be someone else out there for me. I did tell him that I was on my way to meet someone and that I was not able to talk much longer. He said he understood yet he kept trying to keep me on the phone talking about us and other topics that we have in common. I finally had to tell him that I had to go and it was killing me to say it but I did. I was sitting in the parking lot on the phone and I could see the guy standing in front of the place. He had told me what he was wearing and boy did he stand out! He said he was wearing an orange shirt. It was orange alright. He looked like he just finish working construction on the roads or something like that. He was wearing work boots and like 2 or 3 gold chains. The chains just finished the look off.

I know I sound mean and shallow, but I just could not believe what I was seeing. I went through with the date and well he was nice but there was not a connection for me. Physically I was not attracted to him and the things he was saying to me sounded like he already had us married off. He was kind of pushy and was already talking about plans to go on trips and such with me. This was our first date and I don't think I was ready to hear all of that so soon. I feel bad because he was nice to me, but it just wasn't there for me. We had drinks and dinner and talked about what ever. My mind was not all there anyway so that probably did not help the date. He asked me if I would meet him in the morning to have coffee before work. I told him yes then, but I ended up canceling in the morning as I knew I did not want to go any further. I had to tell him that I did not feel a connection. A week later he text me and also called me. I did not answer but he did leave me a voice mail. He asked me if I felt a connection and if I wanted to go out again. I guess he did not get it when I said I did not feel a connection or maybe he was hoping I had changed my mind. I feel bad, but I just can not see myself with him so why would I lead him on. I wished him well and said good bye. So my first date did not go so well and no match for me yet. I think I know who my match could be, but that is another story. I am going to continue to try the service again. The only way I will stop would be if my friend asked me to be his girl then I would probably jump. I'm not sure what to do about him, but for now I will just keep searching for Mr. right, my match. The image I posted is pretty close to how he was dressed for our date. Oh and he is not a construction worker.