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Just a person who has so much to give to someone and who has given so much already. Now has found her old love from her past and is figuring out why they ever broke up and what works now to keep this love alive. I like putting down thoughts about love and life and sometimes writing down what I am thinking in regards to my life at the time. Poems, quotes, and songs are interesting to me from the interpretation of others on this topic of life and love. I also write poems at times just to sooth my own mind. I have been through several relationships and I was married for 15 years. I am a single mother now of 2 children. My son is 24 and my daughter is14. I love my children and I only hope that what I teach them helps them grow up to be decent to others. We learn sometimes by our experiences, good and bad and believe me I have had my share of both. I hope I will be able to use these experiences in ways of teaching my children how to live and lead a happy life of their own.

Monday, November 15, 2010

The ex

So prior to my recent relationship I was married to another man who cheated. We were married for 15 years, together 20 years, known each other for 25 years. He cheated once at 7 years of marriage and I gave him a chance. Then at 14 years again he cheated only worse because it was a close person to our family. Now he is in my life only because he is the father of our children. Since my recent break up he has been very friendly with me, flirting and from what I think he is trying to possibly start up something with me. NO!!!!! I do not see him that way anymore. I do not think of him in a loving way anymore. I think he is feeling regretful, but I just don't have it for him anymore. We have gone to dinner with the kids only and he flirts with me, but it's just not the same anymore. There was too much hurt and anger that he caused me and I will never be able to forgive him for that. I am over it and I can be nice to him and talk to him for our kids, but for me, there is no way that we will ever be anything more then just parents to our children together. I guess the grass was not so green on the other side as he thought it was going to be. I asked him why he is not with his love, and he said she is too busy on her side of the tracks. I took that as they do not have much of a relationship. I don't feel sorry for him. He deserves what he gets. I knew they would not end up being happy. They started out with lies and more lies so how can you have a honest relationship that begins like that. I'm better off without him. Now if I can just find that man that will be a loving and loyal man. I think I am a very loving and giving person and as long as I am treated with respect, I will love that man with everything I have. As for my ex, I will give him only credit for one thing. He loves his children.

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