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Just a person who has so much to give to someone and who has given so much already. Now has found her old love from her past and is figuring out why they ever broke up and what works now to keep this love alive. I like putting down thoughts about love and life and sometimes writing down what I am thinking in regards to my life at the time. Poems, quotes, and songs are interesting to me from the interpretation of others on this topic of life and love. I also write poems at times just to sooth my own mind. I have been through several relationships and I was married for 15 years. I am a single mother now of 2 children. My son is 24 and my daughter is14. I love my children and I only hope that what I teach them helps them grow up to be decent to others. We learn sometimes by our experiences, good and bad and believe me I have had my share of both. I hope I will be able to use these experiences in ways of teaching my children how to live and lead a happy life of their own.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Song to all the cheaters

Song Name: Then What
Artist Name: Clay Walker
Songwriter(s): Jonathan Blair Vezner, Randy Sharp
Release Date: April 4, 1997
Label: Giant
 
 Well I got a good friend who's got a good life
He's got two pretty children and a real nice wife
But he never seems quite satisfied
I said I know what's on your mind
But you better think about it before you cross that line
The grass aint always greener on the other side

Then what, what you gonna do
When the new wears off and the old shines through
And it aint really love and it aint really lust
You aint anybody anyone's gonna trust
Then what, where you gonna turn
When you cant turn back for the bridges you burn
And fate can't wait to kick you in the butt
Then what

Well I aint saying that looking's a crime
Well I've done my share from time to time
It dont mean that you gotta take that leap
When you're standin' on the brink
Before you jump you gotta step back and think
There's price for ever promise you dont keep

Then what, what you gonna do
When the new wears off and the old shines through
And it aint really love and it aint really lust
You aint anybody anyone's gonna trust
Then what, where you gonna turn
When you cant turn back for the bridges you burn
And fate can't wait to kick you in the butt
Then what

Do what you want, do what you wish
It's your life but remember this
There's bound to be some consequences
Sneaking under other fences

Then what, what you gonna do
When the new wears off and the old shines through
And it aint really love and it aint really lust
You aint anybody anyone's gonna trust
Then what, where you gonna turn
When you cant turn back for the bridges you burn
And fate can't wait to kick you in the butt
Then what

This song is very appropriate for my current break up.


Tuesday, October 26, 2010

“Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love. But rather makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along.”


 
I like this quote which I found on Thinkexist.com
It does not give the source.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Relationships. Why are relationships so difficult

What is a Jerk, Rat or Bad Boy and why do women crave him? (13,314 reads)

posted Wed, 09/01/10
Women tend to think of bad boy/jerks as naughty boys who are very sexy and great in bed. But what is a jerk really?
We label a man a jerk because he manipulates women’s feelings, actions, and attitudes after his facade has sucked them in. There is something about a jerk that can be very attractive. These men can act as charming and nice as can be. They know they look good. They have their routines down pat. These professional jerks are like fishermen. They regularly go on missions to get things from women by using their bait to get them hooked. Then they keep women dangling from their lines as they pick them clean. They use women because women want to fall for their facades.
Let’s face it. Being with a man a woman is really attracted to is the best in her mind. And when he says things they’ve really been wanting to hear, dying to hear, and thinking they may never hear, women become putty in their hands, without waiting to see if what they’re hearing is for real. These men are manipulators, used to getting their way. And when they stop getting their way they move on. They don’t feel any guilt for hurting her. They feel if she was stupid enough to fall for him then that’s just too bad for her. Many of these men want as many sex partners as they can get and they can get it.
And strangely, many women seem admire these men or at least want sex with them. In fact women seem to crave these guys.
   I found this comment on a blog in title Relationships and I liked this description of a Jerk
Can you tell that I am angry with men.  One in Particular.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

I wonder if she knows?

I wonder if she knows what she is getting herself into?  I see what is happening to her and it is the same thing that happened to me.  He is making her think she is the only one for him and she is falling for every line he uses.  He has found something in her that he needs, but it isn't because he loves her, it is because she has something that he will benefit from now. Once he has used her and no longer is in need of her, she will end up like me.  What I know now, I actually saw it happening right in front of my eyes, but he had me mesmerized and I could not see what he really was.  He lies so well and he believes his own lies.  Never again will I let someone take advantage of me like that.  If I could tell her to run and get out now before she ends up hurt, I would. One day he will get what he deserves and I kind of hope I am there to see it.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Monogamy

Monogamy is meaningful. “Loyalty.” “Trust.” “Fidelity.” “Honor.” “Respect.” These are all just words until your actions either give them power and importance or deflate them. Monogamy isn’t meaningful because the church or government says so and it isn’t meaningful because you wore a pouffy white dress and said you wanted it to be meaningful. Rather, monogamy’s meaning expands with each day that you and your partner commit to it. And that’s some pretty powerful stuff.

I found this in an article on http://www.emandlo.com/2010/10/top-10-reasons-for-being-and-staying-monogamous/

Big issue with me but it was not I that could not stay monogamous, it was my partner.  I wish I could find a man that could stay monogamous because they respect and love me. 

Life quotes

We make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give .........Winston Churchill

You can’t make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realize your worth."
Source Unknown
Submitted by Anonymous

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

A poem by me-Martha Ann

You had my love
It was only yours
You threw it away
It's no longer yours
I told myself I would not miss you
I haven't found a way to forget you
You took my heart
I want it back
Please tell my heart
You did not mean it
You broke my heart so
Now just keep it
Hold onto it
As broken as it is
Maybe one day you will see
What you had in me
My heart and my soul is forever with thee

Another poem closer to me

Hidden

Hidden behind a smile there’s lonliness.
So painful, but I must express…
my heart played like a game of chess.
Vast emotions I can no longer suppress.
Mind games played to be my fault,
open wounds and you poured in salt.
Feelings of hate moving in my soul,
it feels as if I’m losing all control!!!!!
by Rachel Peck

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Poem

HOPE IS A THING WITH FEATHERS
Author: Emily Dickinson
Hope is a thing with feathers
That perches in the soul
And sings a tune without words
And never stops at all.
And sweetest, in the gale, is heard
And sore must be the storm
That could abash the little bird
That keeps so many warm.
I've heard it in the chilliest land
And on the strangest sea
Yet, never, in extremity
It ask a crumb of me.

Anger and love

Anger and love. A combination of emotions that don't get along. Why is it that when you talk about your feelings of love, you get anger from the receiver and all you were trying to do was explain how much you love him?

Monday, October 18, 2010

thoughts, poems, songs, life

One fine day, you will look at me, and you will know our love was meant to be.  Song of choice today.

Song for my love life with him right now.

What do you do when you love someone who only loves you when they want to and not always? What do you do when he is telling you that he wants you for his future, but deep down you know he is thinking of something else for his future?

Forever & almost always-Kate Voegele with lyrics