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Just a person who has so much to give to someone and who has given so much already. Now has found her old love from her past and is figuring out why they ever broke up and what works now to keep this love alive. I like putting down thoughts about love and life and sometimes writing down what I am thinking in regards to my life at the time. Poems, quotes, and songs are interesting to me from the interpretation of others on this topic of life and love. I also write poems at times just to sooth my own mind. I have been through several relationships and I was married for 15 years. I am a single mother now of 2 children. My son is 24 and my daughter is14. I love my children and I only hope that what I teach them helps them grow up to be decent to others. We learn sometimes by our experiences, good and bad and believe me I have had my share of both. I hope I will be able to use these experiences in ways of teaching my children how to live and lead a happy life of their own.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Death at a young age

Today I read on Face Book that an old school mate passed away in her sleep. She was 43 and had a son and daughter. I was not close to her, but I do remember her being a very sweet person. I can only imagine what her family must be enduring. It can happen at any given time to any of us, but it is just so sad when it happens to someone you know. Memories are what is now left of her life with us and hopefully she is in a place now where she can watch over her family and friends.
Brenda,
If you can read this, you were loved here on earth by so many people and you will be missed greatly.
Birth is a beginning
and death a destination
And life is a journey:
Your journey was cut short, but along that journey you were loved a great deal from all the proof on your face book. RIP

Sunday, August 7, 2011

I had to do it and I feel awful and relieved

Well the end of my 2 month relationship has happened. I broke it off today with my old high school friend. It was very hard to do as he is a nice person, I just did not see a future with him. We were not compatible. I love sports, he doesn't. I love dancing, he doesn't. I am a people person, he is not. I felt that he had a possessive nature and that was a red flag. I don't know how he is feeling. I did it as nicely as I could. How do you really break up nicely? I was honest and I hope he will one day be able to be a friend to me. I know, no one wants to hear that after a break up. I truly think that this is for the best for both of us. Lately I have been on the other end of the break up process. I have not been in this position in such a very long time. I am glad I was reacquainted with him, but I am sad that it did not work out. I was really hoping for love to find me, but once again love is still searching for me. Where is he? I wish I knew. As for this relationship, I can only wish him well and keep hoping for that one relationship I am waiting for.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Breakin' Up Is Hard To Do - Neil Sedaka



Just as I finished posting my last story, a quote popped up on my blog and I thought it was so fitting for what I need to do.
"Wisdom is knowing what to do next; Virtue is doing it" - David Starr Jordan

I also remember this song by Neil Sedaka so I thought I would share it today. This video was from the year I was born. Isn't that so coincidental.

Old high school friend and dating continued

On June 17th, I posted a song that an old high school friend wanted me to listen to and I had mentioned that we were going on a first date. Well time has gone by, and it looks like I still have not found the man of my dreams. We have gone out every weekend since that night and each date has revealed characteristics that just make me think we just are not compatible. I'm very outgoing, and he is not. I love sports, he could care less about them. I love to dance, he won't go there. He does not like to be around too many people, I love to meet new people and I can strike a conversation with just about anyone. He is very sweet to me and loves to take me out places where he feels comfortable, but the more I get to know him, the more I see we are just different people. Physically he is not my normal type but I thought I would try someone different for a change. Not working! I have been trying to figure out if I should give him more time to break out of his shell because I have noticed that since he has been dating me, he seems to be trying things he had not done before, but he seems to have a fear of people he does not know or being around people. I have been advised by friends, family members and co-workers on what I should do and all of them have said I should end it now. He is not for me they say. I see it, but I guess I'm just being too nice. Now I am contemplating the break up. When and how? Any advise? I could use some good break up ideas that are easy on the heart.