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Just a person who has so much to give to someone and who has given so much already. Now has found her old love from her past and is figuring out why they ever broke up and what works now to keep this love alive. I like putting down thoughts about love and life and sometimes writing down what I am thinking in regards to my life at the time. Poems, quotes, and songs are interesting to me from the interpretation of others on this topic of life and love. I also write poems at times just to sooth my own mind. I have been through several relationships and I was married for 15 years. I am a single mother now of 2 children. My son is 24 and my daughter is14. I love my children and I only hope that what I teach them helps them grow up to be decent to others. We learn sometimes by our experiences, good and bad and believe me I have had my share of both. I hope I will be able to use these experiences in ways of teaching my children how to live and lead a happy life of their own.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

What do men want?

So I ask, "What do men want?" I'm not really sure these days. Most of the men I have met lately, seem to want perfection. I am far from that so what kind of men do I attract? I recently had a boyfriend after my marriage ended who I think wanted someone with money and no kids. He has kids, but so do I and I think his plan did not involve other children other then his so it did not work for us. So not long after I broke it off with him, I started something with someone who I adore, but he too seems to be looking for something that I am not. I feel that I am a good person, who is kind and giving, but maybe I am just too nice to them. They take advantage of my generosity and then seem to go looking for someone else. What am I doing wrong? Should I just treat them like shit? Maybe then they will stick around? Everything seemed to be going so well and then all of a sudden he's telling me that we have to stop seeing each other. There were some circumstances with our relationship that sort of prevented us from pursuing anything more then what it was, but I won't go into that right now. Let's just say that we started something that probably should not have started but we were attracted to each other and we went with it anyway. Now I kind of get the feeling that he is using that as an excuse to end it with me because I feel he may have met someone else and wanted to let me down easy or maybe he is just ending it for the reasons that we should have never started in the first place. Sounds confusing but it all comes down to the fact that men these days seem to want the women to be perfect in every way and as you get older, perfection is the last thing we are. If only I could find someone who is looking for a best friend as well as a lover. Someone who he can be himself with and not have to change who he is. I look at the men that I have recently been with and I let them be themselves. I never asked anything of them other then their company and their affection. I want love in return just as I am willing to give my love to them. I still am not sure what men want, but if there are any out there that want someone who will treat them as they would want to be treated send me a message. Tell me what you are looking for.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Looking for Love

So in looking for love, I have come across many different men. All having a few of the right things and also not being the right one. In my life I feel that I almost had the right one twice. Those two were great men that I could not stop thinking about and to this day I have never forgotten. I can remember so many details about them and how it felt to be near them. I was close to marrying one of them, but for some unknown reason, it ended. The other one I was young and just not ready for marriage but he was a good guy. I've had my heart broken several times and I have broken a few hearts myself. It's very hard now being in my 40's and trying to find a special someone. I hate having to work at it, I wish it would just happen. I know that I have been alone for a short time since my last relationship, but I simply do not like being alone. I enjoy sharing my life with someone who I love and I enjoy knowing that someone is home waiting for me or that he is coming home to me everyday. I have my kids and family and they make my life almost whole, but there is one missing link and that is that one love that makes me complete. I hope he is out there somewhere looking for me too. I have so much love left that I can give that special someone and I am looking forward to finding that love. Looking for love? Where are you my love?