First dating service date

Well, I finally used one of those online dating services and went on my first date. This guy had only one picture on his profile, but he sounded like a decent guy. He emailed me first and we chatted for about three weeks before meeting. The night that we planned this I had just finished watching my son's baseball game and I was rushing around getting ready to meet my so called match. On my way to meet him, I received a call from someone that I have been dating and he wanted to talk. I spoke to him on the way listening to all he had to say and all I wanted to do was turn around and go see him instead. See I really like him very much, but he is the guy who is not sure what he wants. He likes me, but is not ready to commit. I know, you're probably thinking I should give up on him, but I can't. I have tried and I just love being with him. I was going on this date to see if there may be someone else out there for me. I did tell him that I was on my way to meet someone and that I was not able to talk much longer. He said he understood yet he kept trying to keep me on the phone talking about us and other topics that we have in common. I finally had to tell him that I had to go and it was killing me to say it but I did. I was sitting in the parking lot on the phone and I could see the guy standing in front of the place. He had told me what he was wearing and boy did he stand out! He said he was wearing an orange shirt. It was orange alright. He looked like he just finish working construction on the roads or something like that. He was wearing work boots and like 2 or 3 gold chains. The chains just finished the look off.

I know I sound mean and shallow, but I just could not believe what I was seeing. I went through with the date and well he was nice but there was not a connection for me. Physically I was not attracted to him and the things he was saying to me sounded like he already had us married off. He was kind of pushy and was already talking about plans to go on trips and such with me. This was our first date and I don't think I was ready to hear all of that so soon. I feel bad because he was nice to me, but it just wasn't there for me. We had drinks and dinner and talked about what ever. My mind was not all there anyway so that probably did not help the date. He asked me if I would meet him in the morning to have coffee before work. I told him yes then, but I ended up canceling in the morning as I knew I did not want to go any further. I had to tell him that I did not feel a connection. A week later he text me and also called me. I did not answer but he did leave me a voice mail. He asked me if I felt a connection and if I wanted to go out again. I guess he did not get it when I said I did not feel a connection or maybe he was hoping I had changed my mind. I feel bad, but I just can not see myself with him so why would I lead him on. I wished him well and said good bye. So my first date did not go so well and no match for me yet. I think I know who my match could be, but that is another story. I am going to continue to try the service again. The only way I will stop would be if my friend asked me to be his girl then I would probably jump. I'm not sure what to do about him, but for now I will just keep searching for Mr. right, my match. The image I posted is pretty close to how he was dressed for our date. Oh and he is not a construction worker.

The ex boyfriend who broke my heart, sent me a message

I was startled by a tone set on my phone for my ex boyfriend. I had forgotten what it sounded like. It was so loud, like an alarm that wakes you from a deep sleep and scares the holy sh-- out of you. I thought at first, "why would he be sending me a text?" He just got married last Sunday, the day after my birthday, so why is he thinking about me? On my phone, there in letters that I was not expecting was his name. It was not a text, but an email. He said he came across something and wanted to send it to me, but needed my address. I was not sure what to think or do for that matter. I had given the address to him before but he said he lost it. I'm a bit curious as to what he wants to send me. He said to me that it must be a bit hard for me to deal with the whole situation between us and the hurt. I just responded with a comment saying that I was over it. Which I am. I don't even hate him anymore. It is what it is and no point in dwelling on it anymore. Wow! Did I just write that? Good for me!
I ended up giving him the address. Now the question is: What is he going to send me? It makes me wonder why he is thinking about me at all, as he has his new love and life away from me. I wonder...
Well when I receive it, I'm sure I will be back here writing about it so follow my blog to find out more. To be continued...

My child is growing up

Soon you will be off on your own
Off to face the world as an adult

My little boy is not so little anymore
You have so much ahead of you and I'm jealous
To be where you are right now not knowing what life has in store for you

It's exciting and scary at the same time
I know you will succeed
I see so much in you and I know one day you will have all that you desire

Take your time and choose wisely
You have so many choices
I wish you well in your endeavors
I love you son
You are growing up and I can't wait to see what you will become

My mom the saint.

My Mom is a saint. I was told that once by a holy man when I was a teenager. At the time what did I know or what did I care. Here this man was telling me this to try and show me why our mothers are important and how we should appreciate them. It was in one ear and out the other then. Now, I know what he meant when he said that. She raised us with very little money, but she gave us so much and sacrificed so much for us. As a mother of a teenager now, I know what she went through. Everything that I do now is for my children and I would give up everything I have to give it to them if they need it. She did that for us. I remember that things were not always great for her and that she probably would have wanted to run away from it all at times, but she never did. Even in her old age now, she is beautiful in every way and She makes me very proud to call her mom. I think back and see her there for me when ever I needed her. I truly believe that my mother is a saint and I love her.

My favorite guest at the Royal Wedding.

He looks fabulous as usual. He, meaning David Beckham. I admire him and Victoria. They make such a beautiful couple.