My thoughts today.

I'm not really sure why I thought of this, but it came to me today as I sat alone thinking about my old loves and I thought, I have never really been without a man for very long. I started dating at 15 years and ever since I have always had a man in my life. I think the longest was after my divorce and that was only a year. I don't like being alone. I enjoy having someone around to laugh with and to tease me about my air headed comments. When I was younger, 19 - 21, I dated several men not so serious, but after that I met someone who I kept around for about a year and then finally the man I wanted to marry for about three years. I recently have found out that that person is also now going through a divorce, and I sort of hope that maybe soon I can see him again. It's been twenty-one years since I have seen him and we mutual friends that have said he is not doing so well with his divorce. I don't know if he will ever want to see me again, but I am hoping for it. I wonder how much he has changed and if he even has any thoughts about us reuniting for a visit. It would be a wonder to waken an old part of my heart that has always been there for him. He has always been in my thoughts, even when I was married. I always have wondered how he was and if he was happy. The thought of rekindling any spark we may have would illuminate my life right now I think with would be enjoyable. Well if it is meant to be for us to meet again it will happen. I am hoping.